Last night I dreamed of a primal madness in humanity.
When I awoke, I understood that this primal madness is caused by a fundamental split within the human psyche. We are split; we are broken in two. It is a deep chasm within, a fallen state.
Human psychic life is shaped by splitting, and hence, a longing for integration drives us. We are driven toward union, and the vicissitudes of this drive can drive us mad.
It is a madness because, from the standpoint of the ego, it is a desire that can never be fulfilled. For as long as the ego experiences itself as a particular individual it will never find the ultimate union it seeks.
The ego knows the world through differentiation. “I” know myself by defining what is “not I”. The ego exists in a world of division between “I” and “not I”. This state of division is dialectically opposed to a deeper impulse which seeks union.
This is the madness in us all: we have two contradictory desires, one for independence and one for union. The ego desires independence: to define itself as “I” by differentiating from that which is “not I”. The souls desires union.
Paradoxically, this madness is only madness when viewed from the perspective of the ego– with all of its “I” vs. “not I” divisions. When viewed from the Self, it is simply the primal pulsation of differentiation and realization.
The desire for union is a drive that moves in a circular fashion, like the Uroboros, the serpent biting its own tail. The drive urges us upward, onward, outward to individuation and transcendence, until we become capable of true union through self-realization and immanence. It is only then that we may come to know the eternal truth of the Self.